Girl meets boy

It has been so long since I sat down and thought to look at my post and read them. So much has changed. Very long story short. I did meet Mr. Right feel in love and now living happily ever after...
                                                                       Mrs. Beth Whitaker.

Challenges

Sometimes I wonder what life will put in front of me and this is one of those times. Emails returned and ignored with out so much as a good bye but I know in a few weeks, months, or years I will hear from you unexpectedly. Just wish you knew you were not a curse or doing anything wrong.....for now.....goodbye. I love you.!

Peace

Once again it has been awhile and so much has changed. I have a bond now with my children I never had before and I guess I can thank my ex for that. The one thing he did positively. I have a new granddaughter who is beautiful but so tiny since she was early but beginning to fill out a bit. And of course Annalysa who I love a little bit more every day. I have had the pleasure of being a stay at home BB (grandma) since I am not working but now it is for sure time to go back to work. My kids need a bit more from me then time and well money doesn't grow on trees. Dating??? Yes but slowly..I have a man I adore but still just taking my time and not attaching any labels or plans for the future. But the respect and peace I get from him is amazing......

Time!

Does time heal all wounds...no but makes it easier to deal with....Right now in this moment I am at total peace and happier then I think I have ever been except the day I had my kids.. My girls and I are all closer and it is amazing to watch them grow into independent young woman....grand babies are amazing and I never thought I would be a "stay at home grandma" but love it though they do make me feel old at times! I have the ability go and do and not be judged by people which is nice. I am "dating" which is different and though things will move at a very pace I seem to know what I want from a man and think MAYBE i have met him but who knows. God will show me the path I need to take sooner then later. BUT I can honestly say that right now in this moment I am happier and at total peace. That is something that is new...

Beth Pippin

Well it has been awhile and a lot to update. 1st I am no longer working which tunred out to be a great thing. Getting paid to stay home isnt such a bad gig.
I am slowly learning to be by myself..I never thougt I would be the kind of person that would go to church by myself...I have gone out to eat by myself...worked out by myself...EVEN fixed my own brakes...next maybe i will go to a movie by myself!!! It is slowly all coming together.
I have cut all ties with the FD and some of those were not easy to do...but none of them had my best interest at heart. I will not surrond myself with people who want to have me fit into their mold. I am my own person. One day I will love but not right now...I am ok... happy and ok!!!!!!!!!!

The will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you

The will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you.

I received an email with this today and it was one of those quotes I have gone back and read the last few days. I guess with that statement if you live it and believe it...then we can never question where we end up! That takes a huge burden off my shoulders.

Life has been pretty good lately...work issues out with the roomie....tried to talk to the ex...but found my peace with out him...Found a man...one who is amazing...sweet.........so easy to talk to .....gentle...kind...and strong....when he calls...i smile and I have a pretty good idea he says the same....which is nice. For once I feel like that I am in a place where the relationship can be a two way street instead of me going one way and him another. There is respect which was never present in my marriage...not for any reason except we were young and didn't understand that...where will this relationship take me??? Not sure! trying to move past the fear of trusting to see if I am at all ready. I do know that some things in my life will have to be changed or removed...friendships I have relied heavily on.. will not be able to stay the way they are. Getting my kids in a place that they understand. But that will all fall into place...until then..I am enjoying the company and will wait to see where God will put me. He will decide what is best I just have to be willing to listen.

Isn't Annalysa precious in this picture!

Wonderful Weekend

What a great weekend....I am truly blessed. I have awesome kids...who always remind me to not take life to seriously. Friends who keep me grounded. And God who seems to put people in my path right when I need them.
Three months of my Cobra insurance was paid for! I was shocked that somebody would do that. Lifts a burden off my shoulders so I can work on me. Angels do exists and we should never loose faith!